Unknown Territory...
Christmas 2015... There is not a lot I am able to say about my situation at this point. But simply to say that in all my life, I never thought I would find myself in this place. Another vast field of "unknownness" in this Land of Firsts.
There are those times that I look in the mirror and say' "What the heck happened? What happened to my life? How did this happen to me?"
Then...
There are those precious times when the Lord draws near and reminds me of not only His presence, but His sufficiency in every need. I have come to say often during this time; "Lord, You're all I need, and everything I need is found in You." Loss, again, not pursued, not desired, not understood, yet loss never the less wants to steal from us. Only a trust in the goodness of God is enough to see one through.
So now, as I deal with another Christmas from a place of loss, the Lord has challenged me in so many ways... in the areas of Reforming, Restoring, and Rebuilding. Learning to make a new life again.
There are still those times when the tears fall un-beckoned, yet coming from some well deep within...tears of loss, tears of sadness, tears of grief.
Yet this truth remains... I have not slipped out of God's hands. He holds me securely, lovingly, knowingly wth a vision to a future. So He and I walk one step at a time...
through this Land of Firsts.... how vast this land is....
'till next time....
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